Taking LOVE...

Is love worth fighting for ...
when most battles are never won
war becomes....
its settles
 who shows the white flag..first
both parties compromise ....loser or winner
in our love we both display acts of sinners
 we applyon  paint
like a saint
lying to ourslves
and even if we had million failed loves
we are still lonely beginners

 Thinking your  a novice becomes a  playful idea
heart failure ...many deaths are walked
no territory is free from guilt ....but you  place  this one in your mindset

of giving up

 Your heart...mentions them in every wake
Does anyone wins !.... so  fighting becomes mundane
if your looking for it to ultimately change
the way.... you want it

Inside this alloted frame
biting into this  rotting carcass
 showing   insanity...
sometimes  we love
but it never was meant for real winning
selfishly.
we want to make a reprise
of this wonderful beginning
we once had  before
times bandages...
trying to get..
a turn to get....LOVES... tourniquet
  hopefully something  would become right
if we hold out
Im a souldier.....WE FIGHT...
never afraid to  workout ....in my hindsight .
war nevers leads to every ones exact  delight
unforgiveness....forms literature of hate
on the walls of someone mind
 as our heart briefly  types
a font of despair...paragraphs... we dont care
when we over endulge off loves....
liquor

In many times the war is not with your significant other
but it surely affects your lover
the duality of choices....the magnetizing voices.....
should I listen to doubt..
ultimately when it wants out.....

she loves or she loves me not...
 becomes my integral position to this graven plot...
these questions are hot...abandonment issues
 introducing  you to new topics...could you really..!
praying to the MOST HIGH..
how could we stop it....

Expectations are dropped in you lap.....
you would fell asleep....in her love.....
 crazy from our mishaps...
hearts are abundant but now you feel trapped


I want to make good love not war
love could be this wonderful verb
 ...I feel its much more special
its never made
think of as   my
   refuge and shade...
a tree in the midst of a
a desert of.....
 pain and hatred
that beams down
hard
 we could visit
to escape...from its harmful UV..rays
 unexpectedly.... that excruciating .burning  our skin
wanting us to live within
without expression
We run for cover ..
when the leaves turns colors
as it
 drops to  this sticky uncomfortable  floor...
Do we run away from that same tree....
How could this be!
Do we stay there ....to bare
for the next  leaves to bloom
love is never easy ...but believe me ....
there is always room....
Our battles are perservered
to take .. whats been promised

nlistic souldier

Bruised Ribs

I had a friend who died
of having her heart broken
so many times..she waited
 to exhale...
her nose
  anxiously sniffing
 wide opened ..
her needed  oxygen never came....
low down dirty shame....
she thought less of her self because of her frame...
insecurities of her girth
never amounted her worth...
priceless ...I thought ...
ladies you are in a different lane.....she is now in harms way...
I would cover you with love
endangered because of your motherly wisdom
trying to etch you out....creating clones .....

I  feel like a motherless child
becomes  an old anthem
replaced by
 I had never had a mother at all...
never
souldierettes of truth...I need you
.I will provide the roof
just march with me in solitude
if he treats you rude...
this so called ..MANS WORLD
 becomes mean and cruel

She made her grade and now
there is solice and
acceptance of her age
before too shy to tell
now its a badge of honor
she made through
 this open pit of
her hell
SHE....has
been around the world ..
she feels nothing has changed
love is far from free....she paid it through ...
our corrupt society....
war had damage her children.
.and knowledge has been hidden
off springs are slightly off.....
meth babies born....
 with holes in their heads....
while politicians playing golf....
never connecting dots..

collecting burial plots
alll men we are taking it straight in the ribs.....
we are too numb to feel it
how much more could a women of today endure
love that she was given the most high gave to cure.....

Low blows  and shots ...
implemented
telling her what to do with her body
she has been submited in demeaning tests...
made to put foreign objects...in place
of her breasts.....
she is more than a sexual desire ....
she is more than her handbags
or her
elaborate attire .......
she is the fire that cook her children meals
the better part of you
that is not afraid to feel
love your sensitive and protect her at will
the ones you love .....
this system is so opt to kill.....
love her at any costs....

nlistic souldier

NLISTIC ARMY

Holding hands around the world
global response....team . paramedics of truth
giving mouth to mouth..
no recess for this complication....with no hesitation
every strategic scribe ... our heaven heals
 those in despair
souldiers pen it ..  ink so pitched dark...
venues unfolded
on a scroll thats holy ...ever so clear ...
hearken for all nationalities  to adhere
raised against this cloaking  force
let the nature of the most high
runs it course
everday people standing for a righteous cause
war is not the answer....
when the  battle ..becomes  like a loud rattle...
annoying pestilence in your backyard
when sleep has been broken....
when  seals  tainted....
false faces been painted
no place to hide for eloping
when this  panther is out of its federal  bag.....
WE THE PEOPLE...
has been had...
agents in sheep clothing
bad bad black sheep
have you any wool.....
fools
wasnt never invited in thier pools
separate but equal....thick line
 between the rich and the  poor
their secretcy..laid out in plainveiw.....
erect a new goverment
constitution..being prostituted
every amendment ...
historical ..like the magna carta
each year...forgeting about the founding fathers
 family becomes first
Mr Shakur..died for this idea...
need sovereign unity
youtube been compromised and facecrooks
are loosed... FREEDUMB....been breached
no difference between the secret societys
and the secret service
all C.I.A....operatives..\
.federal taxes
money are their paper dolls...
dressed them up...in propaganda.
let them addressed the people
corrupted our steeples.....
need our army....of .nlistic souldiers....
so nlist....if you resist
calling all cars......looking in the direction of the stars...
NASA..space programs....
star wars....who cares about education
America the illiterates....
nlistic souldiers reads all their symbolisms
when their parties are  controling  in their underground lobbies
while conducting a new tsunami......
daddy gone and you holding on to mommy
she is tricking to feed her babies ....
while obama throwing up his horns....
 are breeding a  nation ......children of the corn
taxing on our souls...... turn on the 6 oclock new
we are worn
but ask fox network never warned......
new meaning to fox holes
we blame illuminati.....im sure its somebody
we the problem  but we dont know its name ....
doesnt matter join the revolution...we are building the frame
arsenal riped for real change
everyhing been kept a stealth....
even lying about our wealth....fools gold ....
new green paper.....nuclear visions....
hoping our world doesnt turn into vapor.....
watching our world behaviour

nlistic souldiers



when powers that be ..smothers..
humanity lovers....
calling all cars.....shuting down depopulation....
debunking.....their gravity
saving our world from upcoming calamity

nlistic souldier

FACECROOKS......

Erase my thoughts ...blending with your
editing ideas....false world..
stealing identity....
so mention me....location of my body...
never my soul ....
your an agent....boy your heart is so cold.....
my pen react as a pin...pull my fuse
doors of  excruciating pain.... dont light this blazing  fire ,,,,
banned like Van Morrison....because my flame grows higher
revolution been scribed...controlling  my freedom of speech....
never was a patriot fan....hail from new england...
new third riech....souldier is in this generation....
not going out ....without a fight....
the most high have the true light.....
so forget about thor.....his  fire comes from heaven...
im not lucky....my addition becomes  triple  seven...
thier blues rubbing off on us.....making you blue..
when the red  schemes for all your possesions
then you wonder why you stressing ..
to occupied constantly stretching ....
bills playing like the broncos....no bucking
left to be bleached out ..there you go,,,,with your red and white and blue
americana.....trying to make you go nirvanna.....

coke comes to bang ......slugfest to your weary  brain....
mundane music adds links yet another links to your  chains....
your dollar....
subdivision....class system ..... you a blue collar....
whiet collar blood on their hands.....soiled
bloodlusted
tough pill to swallow...then demoncrats you opt to follow
republishing  republicans.....
federally  funded ..blunted on their reality.....feeding surreal thoughts

call me a commie..your dollars should be used as orgami
just  a nice piece of green  art....that they  stole from
egypt.....pyramid schemes....selling out for worthless paper
living to check to check.....living on the edge of your mind.. like a close  taper
staying away from these shift shapers.....fake dream chasers.....
social networking.....agents..be ..jerking...im never was a new boy....
grown man....
cali swag was  never going to be  my district.....uncle toms....dropping bombs...
willie lynching.....facecrooks snitching....listen
rise to the occasion like 2pac.....thisis  rebel music ....marley style ....
political poetry...social unrest.....WE ARE BLESSED
even a nation of a billion....couldnt rock you ....they are the real enemy of the public..
saying the truth even mark couldnt stomach....sould out to the public.....
remove....my content....its bigger than you.....
so what I use the same metaphor..painting your picture
what happen to the future of jill and tommy.....
so take this off facebook...... faceless.... and
ways of a  true coward....... tasteless.....
so hate this ....dig in the grates with this.........
souldier was  never mad...Im  just tired ...... I MOWED
down my grass and few snakes was caught in my blade..
tough cleanup....awkward moments...when people smile in your face
then you turn your back ...now new opponents....
social networking.....steady jerking......tryng give me a spin
like im doing the catt daddy..wheel of misfortune....
have to buy my own  nouns and vowels.....
souldier steady fighting never throwing in this towel.......

nlistic souldier

SCRABBLE

writing without words ....
how could that be....
when faithless animals become alive....
maybe because the ones who have faith....
becomes their Resurrection
 ..inflection of how much the most high cares....
he puts the wishes of the few to provide  for the many....
I guess we all could be fisherman and carpenters
providing shelter
and filling warm plate
food to nourish....
could we indeed fish without words
  finding  the bottom of the shallow sea
even when the sail bowed out
a long time ago....
to another continent ......
writing without words.....
scrolls had been submerged
so the dead have no meaning....
until its brings the new light of day....
how could we speak without this language
thoughts of a simpler way.....
the future hides  your fate ...
when you anxiously want to know....
....communicating with the dead....
third eyes..all sight sealed shut...
touching all the calamity of the wicked
who drive around in expensive cars....
.but we are happy living among  them...
are we in fact dead....
letters without meaning ....
 we all want to become alphabetic
..no alpha man.... so everyone is illiterate
writing without words ....
time writes its way
in our history.. even with out text ..
ushering  new meanings and endings....
so it could write without words.....
humbler in its realm I write with powerful beings ...
.meaning I  scribe with hopes for everyone to learn..
to live in the conscious of our present
WE ALL BECOME EMPOWERED......
twisting turns...put up yield signs and stop lights
 never to be obligated by this time ...
we have to be the author of new destiny...
.free will is always given..
even when our living dead keeps it hidden....

nlistic souldier

SOULDIERS STORY....

Amusement for others ... was it ever for me....

 rewound words in my head .... backwards paragraphs..misplaced laughs

math of the conceitedness ... could they always read it .. the way I wrote it ..

of course not it wouldn't  be poetry.....

the SOULDIER .. 

comes back with a vengeance .. the most high .....said its his .....

so in my return

 giving him all my  receipts ....

so I back away again...

 let the past become the block that holds up my temple ....

those pillars had been crushed....

the great architect.. doesn't need any stones ... so I don't ever get stoned

just a lonely poet when it comes to my thought...

most prophets doesn't have 

an million twitter followers....

that eat in their living room.. everyday...

eggs that's been previously hatch makes up..for this type of  abuse....and his name misuse...

using right angles...forming  a truce.

...when others opts for obtuse...

we all are slightly off.... but the great creators judges

 on life's curb....

when our enemies  placing our heads on his  chopping block 

a firm kick 

as we biting the end of the avenue ....

my images disturbing ... but to deter .....

 

 Disregarding the way we were.....

 SO ...have fun at your amusement park.....

.

Cotton candy.. and the roller coasters rides ... besides it summer

I'm in this underground tunnel 

learning to be more effective..with my present 

that was given to give to ....lambs without guidance 

Shepherds are needed 

others ...aborted their jobs....

I used to call it a curse....thinking myself  without ..it...

unimaginable 

life is never rehearsed.....

we live once....

 to give insight through a verse

allowing  the most high ..love to disburse....

staying humble....only move when he orders....

my boot camp... as I await for approval and  his official stamp....

Cat in da bag

NLISTIC SOULDIER

A PLACE IN

MY HEART

A CALENDER CHARTS

SPACIOUS FOR MY WELL BEING

SEEING

NINE MONTHS

SPORTING YOUR BUMP

FRUIT OF MY LOIN

WHERE I’M GOING

IMAGING, ANTICIPATION

FATHERHOOD I’M ALMOST TASTING

MY FIRST

TO HOLD, AND CULITIVATE

TO PROTECT

TO SHOW MY LOVE

NEVER ABBREVIATE

  

MIZZ PREZZ

Rubbing my stomach praying

About the life that I am carrying

About my secret to the man I am marrying

I sit and wait hoping that it won’t be my undoing.

Never my intention to mislead

Will he accept my honest places

Or leave me begging him please.

NLISTIC SOULDIER

  

GROCERY BAGS OF GOODIES

DADDY’S HOME

LISTENING TO HER STOMACH

I COULD NEVER BE WRONG

THEN AGAIN I HEARD THAT SONG

WHENEVER SHE WAS OUT LATE, I KNOW HER

SO WELL...... MY THOUGHTS ARE STRAIGHT

HAPPY TO HEAR THOUGH WHEN HER FRIEND WAS LATE

I KNOW IT’S MINE.... I FEEL EVERY MOVEMENT

MZ PREZZ

He looks at me with such love

His touch to my belly soft like a CASHMERE glove

My heart breaks knowing where I was till late

I’m trying to deny

To keep up the lie

Everyday I try

As my belly grows

Does he even know

I think of that day and I feel so ashamed

My one night of pleasure is going to cause so much pain

  

NLISTIC SOULDIER

  

SHE SEEMS SO DISTANT

WHEN WE SHOULD BE GROWING EVEN MORE CLOSER

WHEN I’M TOUCHING HER INTIMATELY…SHE REACTS

AS IF I’M GROSS

DEFIANT…THIS SHOULD BE A JOYOUS OCCAISION

WE NEED A TOUCH UP...LINE UP

DOES THIS CHILD MARK OUR LOVE IS FADING

IF IT IS.....

WHY NOW...IT’S DISSAPPEARING

YOUR OVEN IS TOO HOT 

MARKING MY FOREVER SPECIAL YEAR

DOUBTFUL THOUGHTS REVISITING

TRULY

OUT RULY

JUST PROVE TO ME, WHAT I’M THINKING....... COULD BE WRONG

TOGETEHER AS A FAMILY DO WE REALLY BELONG

MZ PREZZ  

So far from where we first began

I strayed so far from our family plan

Never my intent that night

Now I live in constant fright

I know he feels I’m not all there

I still love him

But it’s my fear

I still love him

All the same

I think he feels my shame

Hating himself 

But I’m the blame 

Just a flicker in life’s great flame

I have to keep up in this game 

Lies upon lies

Inwardly he denies 

His endless cries

Only I truly realize

My loves disguise oh lord please

Don’t let this become my family demise